I never tell anyone when I’m sad anymore. All my friends think I have over come depression. It stopped for a while when I fell in love with the most amazing guy. He helped me. Made me feel like I had a purpose to be here. Made me feel beautiful. But it’s getting bad again. I don’t know what to do. When I’m sad he cheers me up just by talking to me. But if I’m sad, I’ll just say I had a bad day. But I never tell him why. How do I tell the first person that truly cares and loves me that I hate myself? I know he would help me and he has my back. I know he will be there for me. But I don’t like bothering people with my problems. Being a Debbie downer. He could have a good day but then I have to bring all my sadness into it? No, I can’t do that.
I just want him to be happy